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I wish I could escape from “me” like you can

If only that were an option we both could have

I could also take a break, have a fling or maybe two

Go here and there, be this and that, have worlds where there’s no you (“me”)

Then come back, share some love and run away when things get dark 

I wish she didn’t live inside of me all day and night 

If only you could be as loving and caring when she attacks

I really wish to redirect my focus, energy and love 

It’s not “one more of my dreams”, I’ve been trapped in this nightmare all along 

You’ve forgotten me, the real me 

My last reference is now gone

I only wish to wake up 

All I want is to start over 

I’m trying to move on 

Please let me go 

Please let me go 

When will I begin
To live again?
One day I’ll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your love do for me?
When will love be through with me?
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends?
– Joe Sample

It must be nice to be wanted times two
And here I was thinking you finally grew
Suddenly I don’t find you so appealing
That bit of clarity was so revealing

I don’t know what was I so scared to miss
I can see now that there is no abyss
You must think it’s harmless, playing with Cupid
Poor little girl, your new teacher, so stupid

For every picture you send me I think
This one I’m sure he also sent to that twink
I really try to let go and dismiss
I just can’t see myself getting past this

The whole thing smells rotten
I’m sick of your face
Good times are forgotten
You just fell from grace

I too have wings and they’re spreading away
And unlike you, my decisions do weigh
I’m not your spare bitch, on call, at your mercy
Call her instead when you’re choosing a jersey

Enjoy your February, enjoy your March
I’ll wait for April? Yeah, right. Sit and watch!
It must be nice to be wanted times two
Don’t get so used to it, I’m fucking through

I once made a promise, five hundred days passed
My love had a deal breaker, that ship has crashed
I’ve realized that promise was made to myself
And I don’t know why but my words become spells

For too long I couldn’t stop feeling so blue
I’m suddenly free from the love I owed you
The sheer curtain fell, I can see through the fog
My love saw a prince and now I see a frog

My great one, an angel, pure soul, golden dragon
It all became clear when you fell off the wagon
I built a huge fantasy, such a great a scene
Now I see a man who lingers at fourteen

You had it so easy to fall out of love
Your flashbacks are fuzzy, you see what you want
You long ago stopped seeing the goddess in me
Blinded by my guilt neither I could see she

For years I was living a dream turned to nightmare
Now finally that burden has become lighter
The pain is unbearable, my heart’s still broken
But slowly I see that a window has opened

I’m gathering strength, I will leave you behind
You’re stuck in a fantasy you’ll never find
The cord has been broken, my love’s been set free
In twin flames and soul mates though, I’ll still believe.

 

 

 

 

When you were born I had not turned eleven
Still it was one of those, “match made in heaven”
You were so cute and you looked just like mom
We were so crazy, yet you were so calm

Quickly becoming the new family’s doll
Dresses and bows if I still can recall
I’d videotape you while dancing to music
Hug you and kiss you until I made you sick

While growing up you would watch Nickelodeon
We shared a ton of chips with lime and sodium
The three of us liked to laugh ’til we peed
We were the ones who introduced you to “tweed”

One day you shaved half your brow in the shower
You were so gloomy that you cried for hours
Both of your sisters, we are crazy fuckers
I don’t know how you’d put up with us suckers

You were my first visitor back in college
I had a blast, more that you can acknowledge
One time you got sick and I was so worried
But thanks to Cher, the disease later scurried

You can do lots of things, draw, sew, and sing
We did a duet, that was everything!
You speak three languages, that’s so bad ass
My biggest talent is releasing gas

You never judge me when I’m silly dancing
You know you can count on me for some waxing
You’ll be an architect in a few days
We’ll have to celebrate and wear some leis

🙂

 

5:00 am. Wake up, bitch! You need to pee.
I know, I made you go twice before three.
Not so fast, fatty! The kitchen’s right there.
Feed me some cheese and a chocolate eau claire.
Well, that was good, now let’s go back to bed.
I have new nightmares, your family’s dead!
No! Fuck the sunrise, it’s just 6:00 am!
Ha! Meditation? BLAH BLOOH BING BAM BEM!
FUCK YOU, YOU SUCK, NO ONE LOVES YOU, YOU’RE FAT!
YOU’RE ALL ALONE AND I BLAME YOU FOR THAT!
Take me to Ballet, but only to watch.
Don’t make me split or I’ll rip off your crotch.
Just skip the shower, let’s binge-watch a show.
Fine! Did you like that? I just hit your toe!
See all that hair you lost? Yeah, that was me.
You’re not as pretty as you used to be.
Here, smell this bacon, you need it, come on!
What? Vegetarian? Why can’t you be fun?
Hey, you’re audition for Fox is today.
You never book any roles anyway.
You need to sing, play some music. Good choice!
Ha-ha! Just kidding, I fucked up your voice.
I’m fucking starving, more food on my plate!
Time to go teach, you don’t want to be late.
Listen to music while driving, just try.
Psych! You can’t do it, it will make you cry.
Oh, man! Not yoga! You bitch, don’t you dare!
I’ll make you fart so hard during the prayer!
Ooh! He’s so sexy, white t-shirt, tattoos.
Say something stupid and play with your boobs.
Let’s buy new clothes, boo. I know you got paid.
Call your ex-boyfriend, I need to get laid.
I’m having fun, we should stay here tonight.
Or just go crazy and pick up a fight.
I don’t like books, and I don’t want to sleep.
Fool, you’ll regret it when you’re counting sheep.
You look so peaceful, I wish you could see.
1:00 am. Wake up, bitch. You need to pee!

Remember my girlfriend?
I told you ’bout her.
I started the story,
here’s what happened next:
A monster appeared and
devoured my girl.
‘Twas living inside her,
attacked from within.
I was getting lonely
and trapped in a cage.
This was a new city,
I didn’t know shit.
When feeling so hopeless
I found new escapes,
like cyber relationships
and some fake friends.
It all started slowly,
new music, hard drugs.
Maybe next is salsa,
car races, parkour…
That’s when I developed
a parallel life
where I was “El Jefe”
and I had no wife.
There were now two monsters
sharing the same bed.
A shit bomb exploded,
hurtful things were said.
My girlfriend is gone now.
Time to be alone.
Don’t think for a second
this story is done.

Back home for a second we shared a neat life.
A nice, cute apartment, we were satisfied.
I was the provider, we ate fancy beans.
I wanted to move here, pursue bigger dreams.

Remember the struggle at first when we moved?
My parents then gave us enough for the two.
We shook in the cold just to not pay for gas;
I studied and studied, you busted your ass.

Oh, how things have changed now, you got a good job,
now you can afford to be quite comfortable.
Don’t take this the wrong way, I’m not passing bills,
you’ve worked and developed a new set of skills.

I still owe my parents, I’m struggling a bit,
I try to invest in my training and dreams.
I know, I’m a diva, I’m used to nice things.
Sometimes I don’t want to get dirt on my skin.

I hate feeling angry, and jealous, and mad.
Sometimes I just wish I could go back in time.
There’s things that you have that I think should be mine:
Us going to Italy, Thailand, Japan…

Invest in your “romance”, have fun, yeah, fuck it!
Those things end as quickly as I take a shit.
I know, you don’t know this, you never were bold,
and now in your crisis you want to be young.

I was young, I still am, I did all those things.
Some lovers inspired me to even be thin!
I still have faith in you, you need to believe:
It’s not her pushing you, she’s not your new me.

It’s all deep inside you, you are your own force.
You don’t need this bitch to go out, see the world!
For now I’ll just step back, I have my own plan.
Enjoy your new fancy beans while you still can.

 

 

 

I once had a girlfriend,
I still love her so.
She’s talented, gorgeous,
she’s smart, and she’s fun,
her skin is amazing,
she cooks like a pro.
We dated long distance
For three years or so.
We texted and talked,
no FaceTime before.
Our love was the greatest,
huge dreams and much hope.
We moved here together
and called it our home.
She faced stormy weather
when trying to work.
We’re both educated
in Science and Arts,
but luck shines upon those
who hold a green card.
I did her a solid,
I took care of her,
but then I felt pressured,
things started to change.
Her magic was fading.
She was getting sick.
The symptoms included
becoming a bitch.
They call it “the black dog”
and sometimes “the blues”.
She lived in a nightmare
and now I was too.
I wanted to leave her,
I just felt like crap.
Who are you and where is
The Love Of My Life?
We’ve grown and made progress,
this was just a test.
The story continues,
stay tuned for the rest.

Your lies keep on spreading,
my love starts to fade.
Just cut all your bullshit,
it’s all just a game!

A game I enjoyed too
way back in the day
when LOL, wink, heart, smiley
were paper and pen.

You say you don’t want that.
Are you being straight?
You say that to me
yet I’m here in your bed.

The thrill, the adventure,
the romance, pet names.
Let’s make up some new ones
recycle, cut, paste.

“I’m dying to see you,
can’t wait for next time.
Let’s fuck on my wife’s bed,
I’m sure she won’t mind.”

It’s all contradiction,
you wanted to fly.
Your balls are still grabbed tight
and now there’s two hands.

 

My grandmother died today. It happened early today but I just found out, quite late at night. Last night and today were just too bizarre, spirits wouldn’t leave me alone and now I think I know why. For the past two weeks I’ve just been spiraling down. This morning I hit rock bottom. I feel so betrayed, and I can’t help but feel ashamed too. Ashamed for letting myself end up in here. Betrayed not only by you, but by myself.

There are pacts that go beyond social protocol, the pacts that your soul makes with the universe as its witness. Today, I finally proved my suspicions true, and my world fell apart. Yet again, here I am. Face to face with my biggest fears. Broken. Alone.

How could this happen? You were supposed to love me forever! The kind of love that transcends time, and space, and crises, and bullshit, and sickness, and fear, and change. The only thing I’ve ever believed in my entire life is love and now I don’t know what to believe in anymore. I’m lost.

What else is a lie? How much deeper could I dig and how much more shit would I find? How can you lie to my face without breaking a sweat? Oh, you don’t owe me shit? It’s none of my business? Well, tell that to the fucking universe! Tell it that we’re not one anymore, that you broke us!

 

I tried to be civilized,
I tried to be cool.
But my soul and my spirits
know something is wrong…

I feel hurt, and angry,
disgusted, and sick.
Why do I even tell you
if you feel what I feel?
You can close up your heart,
disconnect from your soul,
avoid all your feelings,
pretend that I’m wrong.
You can fake all the romance
there is in the world.
And pay for her dinner,
“Good morning, XO”.
You’re just recreating
our story of love.
How cute, right? Long distance.
Wait ’til it explodes.
Go on, keep on lying,
you know in your core
this bullshit will caught up
with you and your whore.
Don’t dare to deny it,
you’re anything but free.
We are one, we are one
and you’re so blind to see!